I havent been on here a while…again…and ironically it is almost exactly a year from the last time…and the scenario is pretty much the same as the last post. In some ways, life seems to have been at a stns still. And yet in others, I have been growing in leaps and bounds.
I usually turn here when it hurts. When there isnt anyone to love, listen or care about me. Dont get me wrong, I have an incredible family. But they are several hours away and busy in their own lives. I can’t blame them.
It is a difficult place to be. In a place where all you need is someone to care about you. But what are you goingto do? Call someone and say “hey! can you care about me, please?” Kinda defeats the purpose. Nobody wants to feel like an obligation.
I can’t figure out why I lead such a lonely life. I try very hard to make friends. I would give the shirt off my own back if someone needed it. I love deeply and genuinely care about those in my life.
Most of my friends are married with kids. Although our kids are great friends… it just isnt the same being a single parent. You dont get invited to the “family” events…and then there are the wives who are too insecure to have a single woman near their husbands. It is incredibly unfair and heatbreaking.
I am so alone it hurts. All day, every day I put on a smile and exude positivity to inspire others…but then I come home…and the truth of the pain seeps out…
Contentment, Peace and Happiness
•July 13, 2008 • 1 CommentThese are emotions and states of being that I have never quite been able to achieve. That must stop.
Do you have any ideas on where to start if you struggle with these attributes? Please comment freely.
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